suicidal thoughts? cutting, depressed feelings?
ive been cutting my legs and a little bit on the top of my arms. i hide the scars and cuts very well since i am a ballerina and i work so i have to wear short sleeves. im very upset all the time, i have been regected by the guy i am in love with. i am not doing very well in dancing, my family treats me like crap, my friends are always having a go at me over nothing, i get called a dog and whenever i look in the mirror i tihnk im ugly and fat so i carved dog into my leg, i just dont want to be here anymore, but i dont want to leave everything behind forever either.
i cant talk to anyone about this, so i need to get over this myself.
to start with, how do i stop the cutting and fade the scars?
and how can i stop these thoughts and depressing feelings all the time ?
please help me, im only fifteen.
First as Qistina said, it is important to get rid of anything that you can use to cause self harm. Whatever you are using, throw it out.
You said you can’t talk to anyone about this. Well I think truthfully, we can only rely on ourselves to get through pain anyway. And by getting through this yourself, you will become so much stronger. So you should take comfort in the fact, that once you get through this, you will be a lot stronger than any of your friends or people of your same age.
I think you need to do whatever it is you enjoy in life. If you enjoy dancing, then do it with passion. But do it for the enjoyment. Don’t make your performance the sole importance of dancing. You said you’re not doing that good anymore. Well that maybe true, but don’t focus on that. Do it because you enjoy and love it. You can try and improve at it while you enjoy it, but don’t beat yourself up if you’re not performing that well.
You say you’ve been rejected by the guy you’re in love with. But at 15, it is really difficult to know what true love is. You are probably looking for validation from him, someone to boost your self esteem, which is only natural. You’ve probably put this guy on a pedestal and trying to get his approval to satisfy low self esteem. But if he’s not interested, it’s important to build your self esteem in another way. Try and forget him and do whatever you can to take your mind of him.
I think a low self image is your main problem. A lot of people suffer this, especially at your age. So hopefully, it helps to know that your not alone. I’ve always found that if I’m feeling low or bad about myself, it feels as if the whole world is attacking me. I think this might be your problem too. You mentioned your friends and family don’t treat you the way you want to be treated, but I think you have to ask yourself, “Do you treat yourself the way you want to be treated?” I’ve found that when you treat yourself better, the world around you treats you better.
The best advice I could give you is to try and feel good about yourself. Love yourself for who you are. Take it out of your mind thoughts that you are ugly or fat and realise that you are a wonderful person. Once you develop your self esteem, you will find that things will fall into place and the world will start to treat you better.
Hope this helps!
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